My Ramblings

Marriage Curse!!!

I have been staring at this meme for a while now. It has me remembering back to a time not too long ago when I was scared for my marriage. I feel like my husband and I grew up with entirely different outlooks on marriage. Some of those views were positive, but a fair bit of them was negative. As my marriage was approaching the year that my parent’s marriage would fall apart, I was wracking my brain with the fear that my marriage would suffer the same fate. I’m not sure why, but that scared me so much. I started to ask myself these crazy questions like; would he cheat on me, would I love him more than I love myself, and would I be left to put my life back together while his life doesn’t even miss a beat. These are some of the things that I kept letting take up space in my head and cause issues where there weren’t any issues. Yes, my anxiety was about to help me throw away my marriage for nothing. It’s crazy how PRECAUTION turns into PARANOIA in a heartbeat without you even noticing it. I’m so happy I only let those crazy thoughts cloud my head temporarily because I would have missed out on the happiness that my marriage has now. Once I was honest with my husband about my fears, and he was comfortable expressing his fears, we began to change how we handled each other within our marriage. He assures me that he would never leave me in that manner, and I guarantee that we will ALWAYS be a team in this life. We have since passed that YEAR OF DIVORCE for my parents, and I feel free from that dark cloud. We’re NOT our parent’s marriage, and we can assure that the view of marriage we leave for our children is positive…